Today my boss told me he was surprised I came back and didn’t live in California as an illegal alien.
Then my assistant manager told me it would be hilarious if I was pregnant.
…Both of these concepts intrigue me.
I think I should cosplay as Tina from Bob’s Burgers for the rest of my life. Because that’s what I look like.
I had a horrible nightmare that I traded in my Pokemon games because I had no money.
I fear that I have entered a dark time in my life where I have become aware of my materialistic ways.
Fucking a doctor would be super unpleasant because they would see your body as a workplace object rather than something to cherish and love. It would probably be super mechanical. Efficient, but loveless.
Some people have too much time and they need something to do in the meantime between masturbatory orgasms.
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The Possibilities Are Making Me Sad
I feel dumb so I mumble my words just in case other people think I sound super dumb and awkward. Even if I do something, I don’t want to sound too pretentious, so I try to just sit back and listen. Like last summer when I tried to be part of a conversation in a Seattle hotel room with one of my best friends and an acquaintance. They’re both university students and at the time I was an unemployed college dropout with no game plan. They spoke of discreet math and geometrics and things I will never be able to wrap my brain around. So I just sat at the desk and drank while they sat on my bed and talked like intelligent beings.
Sometimes I want to go back to school just so I feel like I know something. But I know that I can’t succeed in most school settings because I am paralyzed by the fact that I have to be motivated to complete a degree that may not be relevant to my interests in two to four years time. Also I can’t deal with being stressed out in any capacity.
I think I might be ‘tarded in addition to being a burnout.
Seth tells me that I just have to find a good balance between being a free pirate and doing the cooking by the book. Also, Lazytown sometimes has really solid advice.
California Love
I hope my life changes positively over the next week. I hope I get secret married. Except that’s crazy.
People being angry about ~dem gays~ on Target’s Facebook.
I just want to give my two cents on this and tell you a story.
A couple weeks ago, I was hired at Target. I have a job at Target. Not a big deal right?
It is a big deal because i’m a transman.
It doesn’t take a genius to conclude that it’s hard for me, my brothers, and sisters to get a job. There are legal restraints regarding the job and if you don’t pass, it’s hard to be taken seriously at a job interview.
Right on the application, it asks what your preferred name is. It also asks if there is anything that target should know. I put the fact that I am a transman, expecting not to get a call because usually when you put that down, people will throw out the application. I got TWO interviews.
At the interview, they asked me about it. I told them I am on hormones and they told me that they didn’t care. Not in the sense that they don’t emotionally care, but that it didn’t matter. I was male and that’s all that mattered. They also told me that they give sex same couples benefits in states that do not recognize them as a married couple.
At my job orientation, I was not misgendered once. Even my supervisors who weren’t sure of my gender avoided pronoun use, which I found only happens when you’ve had pronoun training. They gave me a name tag with my preferred name and didn’t ask questions. I felt safe and respected, which is huge for a trans* person.
TLDR: Target is amazing not just for the LGB, but also the T. Shop there for the rest of your life.
Just keep warming my heart, America. <3
